ok..
i will noe ur answer..
maybe i m nt ur best fren..
nt even a fren..
i m juz a stupid..
tat always wan msg u..
u noe what msg for?
to remind tat we r frenz..
a forwarded msg but a true promise..
u noe?
ok..
nvm..
i no nid this kind of fren..
plz..
appreciate the ppl in front of u before regret...!!!
plz..
my fren..
i oso gt feels de..
dun be like tat..
i m warm blooded human..!!!

thankz the couple=)

tat day28/07 night...
i feel really helpless n i think i m going to lost...
jia lei msg me three times de whole day..
soli for dint reply..
in the third msg..
i reply him..
becuz i like the thing he say..
soli bren..
sth fren la..
he quite funny..
make me laugh the whole nite..
haha..
thx vry much..~
then i send back a promise forwarded msg for him..
he say thx..
among frenz,there is no such thing soli or thx..
frenz,if they do sth wrong..u won't think its bad..
juz becuz of one word...
fren..
then i reli feel helpless..
msg my buddy..
bren..
first,i ask her sum personal thing..
cant tell here..
then i tell her my lonely life..
no matter class or wherever...
she tell me sth..
she say i will never alone cuz still gt her...
reli?
hope so...
there are two choice for me..
one is continue my footsteps...
second is stop here..never continue anymore..
i m lonely there,should i continue my footsteps?
if i stop here,my happiness will come back?
dunno...
tell bren too many things..
she keep on giv me advice..
i love this kind of fren..
appreciate u vry much..
of cuz jia lei..
u 2 better guai guai o..
haha..
i won't appreciate tat kind of frens who juz find me when they need..
then forget me all de time..
i no need this kind of fren..
get away better...soli..
i m reli helpless...
who can help me??
anyway..
thx this couple..
thx vry much..
best buddy forever...
others is bff=best fren forever..
we special..hehe..
bbf=best buddy forever...^^

雨能洗走一切吗？

雨能冲淡我对那里的所有眷恋吗？

雨能淡化我那依依不舍的心情吗？

雨，请带我走...

离开这片荒凉寂寞的土地...

雨，请记得一定要把我带走..

这里，我已失去了所有...

太寂寞...

我总一个人走完所有的路...

没有任何人愿意陪我走下去...

我太孤独...

日落

日出是上一个日落的写照...

每个人都爱日出...

而我不同...

爱日落...

日落是多么的短暂...

象征着短暂的生命...

短暂的美好...

日落总在最美好的时刻结束...

消失在海平线上...

多感慨的一幕...

短暂的瞬间...

瞬间的美好...

每一个日落...

我会闭上眼...

祈祷你幸福快乐...

现在又是日落时分...

在次闭上眼...

合上手...

放在胸膛...

在心中默默祈祷你幸福快乐每一天...

我要看见你会心的容颜...

挚爱...

从他们口中得知...

你病了...

不能给你任何慰问...

没有勇气...

最近的天气炎热...

记得多喝水...

还有帮我做一件事好吗？

拿起你的左手，摸摸你的脸蛋...

帮我对你自己说：

好好照顾自己...

没有我的日子里...

一切保重...

我要看见你幸福的笑脸...

再见...
从我们的口中说出...
好不舍得你...
你离开我们在那瞬间...
到今天,眼泪都还不停的在流...
接受不了你撒手人间...
我们不能再见面...
已经看不见彼此久违的笑脸...
我想要让自己忘记你离开的理由...
但记忆偏偏永远停留在那一天...
望着那心电图...
你的心跳停止了...
你说生死由天决定...
不需要太伤心...
但是，
我们几时才能伤心痊愈？
你的笑脸将纪念你在人世间的一切...
我不想再因为你的离开而流泪...
我会学习放下所有...
但我们对你的爱...
永远不会变...
记得那天，你即将离开我们的时候...
说了最后三个字...
我...走...了...
那一幕幕还刻在脑海...
接受不了你撒手人间...
我们的挚爱，
在天堂，一路好走哦...

一个家庭又怎样？

我们是有距离的...

我们是有差别的...

不一样就是不一样...

在他们眼里，

我不是他们的一群...

我很想离开了...

但是我舍不得...

舍不得所有的同伴...

可是我在那个世界...

生存的很痛苦...

在困境中成长...

接受所有挑战...

但是为什么你们这样对我？

不是曾经说好我们是一块的吗？

为什么丢下我一人？

承诺去了哪里？

可以不要这样对我吗？

我不是冷血的...

我也有感情...

在那里两年了...

却丝毫得不到重视...

我付出了友情...

真心对待他们...

却比不上任何一个...

该放弃离开？

还是...

继续加油...??



我很累了...

rehearsal..

冷落...

对我而言...

已成了习惯...

我被这种痛折磨到习惯了...

今天，运动会彩排...

没能力出band的表演...

所以...

代表瑞狮团...

前几天...

yee hung,nam hua n jim找我去操步...

犹豫了好久...

还是点头微笑着答应...

不是很想，但没办法...

每一次的练习...

我都不快乐...

我不是代表着你们，可是我的心却一直徘徊你们的音乐中...

上个星期六...

我穿着spain t 去练习...

一个不知名的人说我像个叛徒..

我真的是吗？

不是我不要代表他们...

是我没能力...

我笨懂吗？

今天...

操过你们的面前是...

我根本不敢多看你们一眼...

我没脸见你们...

大家庭的口号...

one band..
one sound..
one heart..
one soul..

你们的结合是一颗完整的心...

而我的加入...

则是包围心的一层油...

可有可无...

也可以是个废物...

我永远与你们粘在一起，

却永远进不去那颗团结的心...

我明白为什么我会有这种感觉...

还没去操步之前...

我又问过y2k...

他说ok哦...

会有这种感觉可能是我太爱你们...

那种爱你们的精神难以诠释...

等待那一天的到来...

记得...

我与你们同在...

加油！


love,
shihien......

^^

dear larryyyyyyyyy......

last night,u told me that ur father was apply for migrate...

i m shock n sad when i noe tat...

lee yii r going to leave this big family in coming thursday..

if u really go, i m telling u here i will vry vry sad..

dunno why..we juz fren nt so long time...

i believe tat u will be one of my best buddy..xixi~

u tell me tat u hope u go..

u say u wan to leave this place..

u say u will die here...

juz becuz of sumone..

if leave is good for u..

i agree u n plz u leave all of us...

like tat u can forget all the things here...

begin ur new life there...

really the one can make u do such this decision to leave all of us??

leave band??

leave all ur lovely frens??

think before u do...

if ur final decision is go...

i will let u go although i dun wish...

but it is good for u...

u feel good then everything will be fine...

gt a secret tell u here:lhbbf...

hehe..

lhbbf=larry hien best buddy forever...

jia you jia you!!!

smile la..=)

leave ur sadness to leave..

i will give u my smile...^^

发自内心的呐喊

不公平的社团...
不公平的世界...
你们看小我吗？
看不起我吗？
贬低我吗？
排斥我吗？
不管什么都好，我都会硬着头接受...
毕竟这是个事实...
我的付出，往往得不到任何回报...
我的付出，会有人看见吗？
我在里头的角色，真是个配角...
一个名副其实的配角...
每一次的我都只能躲在一旁...
做完我应该做的事，然后离开...
我已经惧怕这种生活,我开始怀疑自己的办事能力...
在一个人的时候，我会闭着眼想，我的付出值得吗？
我的付出是白费的吗？
想着想着...
泪会流...
有一句话说：或许有一时的侥幸，但没有永远的埋没...
但是，有时就是因为种种我们不明白的原因而被永远埋没...
而有些人，就可以那么侥幸的一步一步很快的抵达成功...
这就是不公平吗？还是命运？
对我而言...
这是种折磨...
也是种不公平...
但我也相信命运...
或许我真的不配有那种资格...
我总觉得自己好委屈...
好可怜...
像个没人要的小孩...
再怎么不公平也好，我还是必须克服...
我期待那一天快点到来...
那遥不可及的一天...
希望我的等待不会演变成绝望...
虽然这样...
我还是要在你们背后默默的微笑着叫你们加油...
泪不能在你们面前流...

DEATH

我徘徊在死亡边缘...
如果我即将踏上死亡之旅...
由死亡列车载送我到达那无忧无虑的天堂...
我将退出这场生命...
告别所有一切...
在这之前...
我想要拥抱最爱的你...
因为...
那时我冰冷的身体已拥抱不了你...
最后，
请自己尽力...
把你忘记.....

ningg,thx..=)

...
yi ningg..
thx for ur cares...=)
hehe..
thanks for cares me when i m sick..^^
hehe..
a new post especially for u..
really thx ya..
best fren forever..@@
dun forget wor..
xixi~

best fren forever o.....><

...finding sponsor...

from wednesday..ch band start our plan!!sponsor...we r nt the first one..
lion dance..athlete swimming n slad oso start this day so we must work harder!!
tat day we meeting..
i m pleased to be inform tat i m in jessica tat group...
dun care in which group,i hope i can do well..
come,let's intro my group member..
leader:jessica jong
assistant:rodrick..but he nt wif us all 'journey'..
members:eric tan,melvin ho,abegal,yi lian,teck en,larry n me~..hehe..
i m happy wif them..=)
the first day,we go near the fish market there..
early i dunno whether i can go or nt cuz i m still sick..
but when the time almost 12..i think i must go!more ppl can work faster..
although i sick n feel tired..i m happy becuz i m helping band to do sth..
thx eric n larry help me take my bottle..haha..
gt some malay shops..i m force to speak bm..
haiz..i cant speak well la..haiyo..english still can la..
haha..wednesday is a hot day..careless me leave my towel in mummy car so i m hot!!
second day..continue our sponsor..
we go imperial mall..
rainy day..
i borrow umbrella from wen then till now haven return to her..
we go n ask the shop 1 by 1..
nobody wan to sponsor or donate again..
they say they have donate before..
what can we do?
say tq lo..
haiz..
yesterday we dint get much..=(
nvm..jy today..
but i dint go wif them today cuz sth to do in school..
sorry jess..><
jy u all..
thx jess for leading us@@..
that's all for my request for sponsor day...(:

终于还是病倒了

生病了...
太累了吗？
熬了那么久...
还是逃不过病魔的纠缠...
它终于还是找上我了...
两天没上课了...
很严重吧...
这两天，我连走路都有困难...
整身都没力的...
不知道为什么...
我很久没这样生病了...
我生病了...
却没有任何人会来慰问...
关心我...
多可悲啊...
这种可怜的人生...
不晓得...
我还能撑多久...

concert appreciation dinner..

concert appreciation dinner today..
i sleep till six baru wake n bath..
RUSH CUZ I M GOING TO BE LATE...
cant set my hair cuz no time..
haha..
from eight i had a bad stomachache till now..
vry vry pain..
ok la..
boring there..
so take many photos..
teehee..
































































tat's all...=)

可否与死神有个约定...


让我暂时昏睡...


什么都不管...


什么都不理..

.
让时间冲淡一切...


让岁月带走会议...


再醒来...?????

in this world.....
i will always be alone..
forever and ever..
because something wrong here...





no one understands me...

no one loves me...

no one wants to accompany me...


no one..

no one..

i feel nothing...

then i begin to feel cold..

very very cold..

as cold as ice...


like a body in a freezer.............

我想烘培出用不尽的快乐...
和你兑换....
那赶不走的孤单...
我可以用快乐将你的心填满...
我喜欢看你笑...
只要你笑...

nonami basic camp..

this monday till wednesday is mr nonami basic camp..
this time is the first time i join nonami camp cuz before tat they all prepare for the spain..
i m stupid so dint chosen..
i only go for four time mr nonami camp..
the most important in nonami camp is discipline..
he wan all of us have a good discipline..
with good discipline,we then can play out beautiful peace n love music..
mr nonami is a strict teacher..
he scold the want who dun wan to do but never scold the one who did wrong..
this is his rules..
we cannot sleep during his lesson..
if sleep,wat for go there?
pay 30 ringgit n go there to sleep?
no no!!!
we must appreciate it!!
learn all the thing tat he is going to teach us..
we must answer his question..
same,he never scold the one who answer wrong but scold the one who dun ever wan to answer!!
this is mr nonami..
after the three days lesson,i think i learn many things..
finish the lesson,i quite feel tat n hope mr nonami can be here forever wif us..
he is good...
i promise i will vry vry concentrate in everytine...