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10 OF JUNE, IT IS FINALLY THE FULLSTOP FOR MY FULL TIME JOB. AT FIRST, I HAVE TOO MUCH OF EXCITEMENTS TOWARDS THE COMING OF THIS DAY, BUT WHY MY MIND WAS SO COMPLICATED NOW? MY LAST WORKING DAY WILL BE AT THIS COMING SUNDAY, AS A REPLACEMENT DUE TO SORT OF STAFFS. THE ELEVENTH MONTH OF WORKING, I HAD SET A VERY HIGH TARGET FOR MYSELF. 9 WORKING DAYS  FOR THIS MONTH AND I HOPE MYSELF CAN FIGHT FOR 3OK SALES. ANOTHER 3K TO GO TO ACHIEVE MY TARGET, COMING SUNDAY, PLEASE DON’T DISAPPOINTED ME HELLO. PERSON IN CHARGE, PLEASE DON’T BE DISAPPOINTED IF I AM UNABLE TO HIT IT, BUT I DO HOPE THAT MY PERFORMANCE CAN SHINE YOU FOR SOME MOMENT. ALRIGHT, YESTERDAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF WORK BUT ALSO THE LAST DAY TO SEE MY RESPECTFUL BOSS, AND IT IS ALMOST ONE YEAR SEPARATION. CAN NEVER MEET UP WHEN MY PART TIME START. ALL THESE DAYS I WAS TORMENTED BY MAKING DECISION FOR MY FUTURE. GONNA START MY SECOND YEAR OF DIPLOMA SOON, SHOULD I CONTINUE MY DEGREE IN SCOTLAND, UK? SHOULD OR SHOULDN’T ? CAN OR CAN’T I ? I HAD SEEK FOR MANY SUGGESTIONS. FOR MYSELF, I WOULD LIKE TO CONTINUE THE ANOTHER 3 YEARS OF DEGREE TO FULFILL MYSELF, AT LEAST WITH A BACHELOR CERTIFICATE. THE TWO MAINS THINGS THAT BROUGHT ME FEAR: 1. HOMESICKNESS 2. LEFT THIS JOB FOR THREE YEARS. THE FIRST PROBLEM MIGHT POSSIBLE TO SOLVE BUT HOW ABOUT THE SECOND ONE? THERE MUST HAVE SOME PERSON TO REPLACE MY SPACE DURING MY ABSENCE AND I HAVE TO START ALL OVER AGAIN, FROM ZERO AND ALL MY HARD WORK THESE DAYS WAS WASTED, JUST THAT WAY. MY MIND WAS DISTRIBUTED INTO HALF. 50% THAT GO, 50% THAT STAY. NO ONE CAN HELP ME TO DECIDE MY FUTURE. I AM SO CLEAR WITH WHAT I WANT, I WANT BOTH, THAT’S SOUND SAD CAUSE IT’S QUITE IMPOSSIBLE. DEAR BOSS, YOU’RE ALWAYS MY MIND READER, MY RESPECTFUL LEADER, CAN YOU PLEASE TELL ME HOW AM I WILL BE IF I PURSUE MY DEGREE IN UK? AND SO THE OPPOSITION IF I STAY HERE WITH YOU RIGHT AFTER MY DIPLOMA? I HATE MAKING DECISION. WHAT AM I WORRY ABOUT IS I ALWAYS SCARE THAT IT’S TOO LATE, EVERYTHING IS TOO LATE FOR ME WHEN I’M A DEGREE HOLDER. CAN THIS COMPANY PUT SOME TRUST IN ME THAT I WILL BE BACK TO YOU ALL RIGHT AFTER 3 YEARS LATER ? I COULDN’T PREDICT WHAT WILL HAPPEN IN THESE COMING YEARS, BUT I HAVE A VERY CLEAR MINDSET THAT I WILL BE BACK TO YOU. NOT BECAUSE OF I CAN’T FOUND ANY BETTER COMPANY, IT’S ALL ABOUT THANKFULNESS, THANKS FOR BUILDING UP ME INTO A TOTALLY DIFFERENT GIRL. COULDN’T ASK FOR MORE, ALL THESE 11 MONTHS WERE SO FRUITFUL TO BE ONE PART OF MOG, ONE SMALL PART. FINAL EXAM IN FEW MORE DAYS THEN I WILL BE HOME. DECISION MAKING STRUGGLED ME NOWADAYS, STILL WAITING FOR MORE AND MORE SUGGESTIONS. MY TALENT SCOUT, THANKS FOR BEING THE ONE IN MY LIFE, THOSE WORDS YOU TOLD ME TWO NIGHTS AGO, I SWEAR IT WARMED ME A LOT AND I WILL GROOVE THEM IN MY MIND. FCS AND THE OWNER, YOU WILL BE MISSED. A YEAR LATER, I’M NOT ME ANYMORE AND THE SAME GOES TO THE ME 3 YEARS LATER. STAY TUNED. MOG, I DO LOVE YOU MUCH. I AM NOT SO SURE HOW IT WAS DONE, BUT I JUST DID IT. GOOD NIGHT AND SHOUT TO THE SKY AND STARS, TELLING THEM THAT I’M COMING HOME. =’)