all these SIXXXXX long months

FINALLY, there is WiFi over my condominium. And, FINALLY I got to online with pc. This was a diary which I jotted down in my small notebook DAYSSSSS ago and this will definitely be a very long update about every details of my living here for all these 6 months.. Well let's start. 10th August 2013, it was 14 days since I came here. The toughest time had gone, and I know that I'm one step closer to success. After few days here, I decide to live together with jiejie. Once again, (not because of homesick, seriously doesn't wish to waste mama's money to pay for double rental) , so I move all my things from hostel to pv16 (our condominium). Taxi is too costly, so LRT become my daily transport. Tuesday, I went to interview due to the need of the course. Working is one part of our learning so I have no choice. Yeap, I was hired by one well known M.O.G franchise outlet. I almost fainted when my senior manager told me about my working attire. Formal top, black skirt, black high heels, make up and tidy hair. I look so terribly old in formal. :(

this is the first photo of mine when working.I started my working and also so called "internship on 2nd August. Everything started with fear. I can't forget how terrible the feeling was when my first day of work. Days by days, I get used to the new environment. Every time I phoned to mama, I will have a strong feel that my tears gonna roll down, because nothing is easy outside.

this is one the way. There are lots and lots of motivation in Facebook or even twitter, I will always wrote them down and encourage myself to keep my head up and move forward whenever I feel like I want to give up.
26 of August, Jiejie was going back home. Oh gosh damn I guessed I must be cannot survive the months without her, cried a lot when she backed because she left something on the table.

this is just way too warm. Everyday kept on repeating the same routine. 10-10 working. Wednesday and thursday went for class. Time flies too fast which I can't even know the actual date of today.
31 August was my 18th birthday. It was an all alone birthday. All my course mates working or even out station. And so I went to KLCC myself, just walked and walked to release my stress.

It was not a special day though. Just a simple happy 18th birthday to myself. Of coarse I thanks a gang of my silly friends who sang happy earlier birthday to me in Neway karaoke 1 Utama. Yes i admitted that life is much more happier with their presence.

one of the silly girl. Went overnight at their place before exam. Am i cute ? Somehow sometimes i just hope that i can act silly like a child and never worry about tomorrow.

10/10/2013 was annual dinner of our company. Have a look with our costume ! 'WILD WILD  WEST' theme. Alright, the 2 beside me are my best soulmate along these 6 months. I am the youngest among them, they taught me a lot and a lot. I appreciate them in life. oh yeah, we were in love with Carlsberg, Heineken or whatever. We just enjoy drunk together and pour out everything.

They are my colleagues. M.O.G KL FESTIVAL TEAM aka DYLAN's team. Yes, 3 words to conclude about them-----my second family. Besides school days, I spent all my days with them from morning until night. They taught me a lot about lenses, frames, contact lenses and of coarse we are talking nonsense most of the time. Anyway, I can't imagine how my working life will be without them. 

 yes, the person in the photo is my boss. Photo taken during annual dinner 2013. A successful young man. He played the most important role along these 6 months. Well, I can't describe his generosity through words. It's too much to say. Thank you for your generosity and magnanimity of your offer. He never encourage me face by face, but he will just whatsapp me or through phone calls. I remembered I got a call from human resource department, apologize to me for delayed my confirmation letter. He cared about me and hope that I won't keep this in heart. Whenever I saw him, I was like spirit up up and vice versa. I can't promise you anything boss but i will never let you disappointed. Throughout all these 6 months, did you see my hard work and improvement ? I do hope you smile whenever you check with my performance. Take good care. If i can, I would just shout to the world that he is the world best boss. So far for me is like that. (Don't judge me if you're not clear with the situation.) 

09/11/2013, date went home, photo taken exactly the date. Like a boss. Guess what, home is always the best. It was only 5 days home but it's enough. My heart "squeezed" for some moments when I saw my parents. I love them. so love them. Thanks for giving me this wonderful life. 

After one week home, I backed to KL again. 23/11/13 was the lovely's convocation. I'm here to represent dad and mum to apologize to you that they couldn't make it to your diploma graduation. I'm so sorry but please forgive them. You knew the reason. She was my jiejie, one and only sibling. We were close since childhood, seldom quarrel and she always left over the best stuff for me. It was her convocation day. Congratulation for graduate with distinction on Biology and Chemistry. I love you anyway. 

Graduation night, I brought her for some awesome foods. We went to hard rock cafe for our dinner. It was an expensive dinner but as long as she is smiling, everything is worth. She is my one and only sister. Who to love if I didn't love her? 

this is me. Am i cute ? ^^ Mummy called me little pink lion. haha. I thought it should be little pink pig. Just a random photo on bed. Life outside is tough but I have been going through six months. 

This is a girly me with a super mature deary. It was her birthday party that day. We went for sushi buffet together shopping together and barbeque together. Even sleep with her that night.Absolutely unforgotten sweet day. Whenever I was stressed with work or study, she will be there. Still remember, there was one night, we went for bak kut teh at kepong area, nearly midnight that time. It was a heart talk night and she wiped over my tears. Girl, you're truly loved. 

Sometimes, I was just too bored to stay here. Have some fun just like the photo shown above, my hair bun. What face is that? I wonder. You will never know how stress am I cause I still smiling no matter how tough the situation is. I'm stronger than you think. 

My second photo with boss. Since we hit our sales target, he brought us for lobster and french snail at The ship bukit bintang, it also known as "the best steak in town". Look at the photo, he is always that cool, never want to smile. Seriously you will feel better if you meet him in reality. He is having few outlets now and not be able to come over to visit us all the time. No worries, no need to worry since I'm here. Will hand in better and better result every month for you. Well, remember this: YOUR TEAM LOVES YOU. :')

December, it was fall and winter season. See who am I with ? Santa clause was in the mall. HOHOHO. I whispered in his ear that please surprise me with 2014 and please turn all my dreams into reality. It sounds so impossible but I still hold on to the hope, even though it is as tiny as bacteria, invisible. I do have a lot of dream. I gave up some of it. Well, I know there is no U-turn in life so I will just let it goes. I know the Father Lord will always have a batter choice for me. 

Look at this sunshine boy. He turned into NINETEEN yesterday. I miss him. Didn't manage to meet him for one long year. Why is he so special ? He is the one who encourage me to study hard for my SPM, he solved me additional maths, chemistry or even physics questions through whatsapp. He is one of the reason why I choose to be same class with him in the last year of secondary school. I can't forget our graduation day, he shaked hand with me and thanks me for being his classmate during form 5. It was the last time I saw him. Even when the time I was in Melaka, struggling with homesick, he texted me " big girl don't cry". Not only that, when I decided to fly for my second time, he was there with me too, told me can't give up anymore this time. Yesterday was his birthday, so sad I can't celebrate with him. He told me he is heading to USA real soon, friend I miss you. Why Why? Why we cannot be in the same university, having the same course? Because this is life, everyone has their own way to go, everyone has their own dream. When can I see you agian? I hope it's not a long wait anymore. PUI, you will be missed and you will be always in my mind ! Keep in touch and hope our friendship can go as far as it can be. I truly love and appreciate you as my best buddy. Stay healthy. With lots of love, Shi Hien. 

Alright, I do not have too much time to write about my every details here. When will be my next update? Probably another half year to go I guess. I'm too busy and please forgive for not up to date. 

There may be people that have more talent than you, but there is no excuse for anyone to work harder than you do. 

GiRL, be smart and BE OUTSTANDING !

Fear VS Fine

Finally there is unifi over my living place here. And it's blogging time again. I reached here few days ago, thursday. Straight went to my hostel condominium right after airport with sis. Took my hostel key from school then went there with lots of excitement. The outlook of the condominium was nice.

This is how the outlook of my condominium. Not bad right ? But then when I stepped in my unit, worse than my expectation. Living room still okay but not the bedroom. I live in master bedroom, it's old and dusty. Oh my god, the insecurity feeling flew once again. Put down all my heavy luggage, heart talk with sis in the dusty room, ate mummy's homemade dumplings. We cried, with lots of reasons. She told me she was upset too 2 years ago when she first came here. She spent 2 semester, more than half year to get used of the life here. She told me she always cried after phoned baba mama and never cried along the talk. She hided every sadness of her but not me. I felt better after cry out. First day, we cried, wiped away tears, repeated this silly action over and over again. At night, we had our dinner nearby, a chinese restaurant.

 

This was my first meal here. Salted fish pork belly clay pot. I had no any appetite to eat cause my darker mood was tortured me. But I know this terrible feeling will end very soon. Back to sis' condominium and bathed, what a tiring day. A great thanks to Ida and Kim Shin who talked to the throughout the night. Thanks for comforting and reminding me of every little things. I can't fall asleep even it was already midnight. It was hard to fall asleep but then after slept for few hours, I was awake with tears. Looking out the window, night view is pretty here. Think of I was separated with my dad and mum miles away, my tears dropped. The feeling of leaving home was TERRIBLE I tell you. You will never know until it happens on you. Forced myself to go back to sleep. The another morning, woke up and told myself it's a new day instead. Life moves on. We went to purchase all goods that needed in Festival Mall. Of course we were having our lunch there. 

Papa John chicken super papa pizza was our lunch of the day. The salty cheese sauce is yummy :P Still, I was still not in a good mood to eat. Please, I pray hard for the sadness to go away. Shoo Shoo ! We went back to hostel again to drop down all my stuffs. Both of us felt the same way, we felt better than yesterday. We cleaned up the dusty room and started to unpack my belongings. 6pm, we were home. It took one and a quarter hour to go to sis' condo. It was so tiring to have a round trip per day. Yea, this day was just much more better than yesterday, much  much more. Then, we smiled =)

Calling to baba mama at night, baba was glad that I'm not crying while talking to him. Well, I had no more tears to cry at that time. Anyway, it was a well spent day. Yesterday, nothing special. Went to pavilion to have our lunch, simple shopping. We went to O.M.G ! oh my gas nitrogen ice cream. That was our first try. We had a cutie size ice cream. Taste not too bad, not that cold but it's little bit costly. RM12.90 for a small size ice cream is not worthy at all. Alright, we promised no more next time. 

 

 This is the "O.M.G." ice cream with M&M topping. Yeap, last night, it was another night which was so hard to fall asleep. Cause I was scared the arrival of Sunday. What's on my thought last night : I have to go back hostel alone, ride on LRT for more than one hour alone, walk alone and sleep alone. The uneasiness never end. Today was Sunday. Time slipped. It was evening, I have to go. Jiejie sent me to the nearest LRT station and I continued the way myself. Well, the feeling was not too bad. Reached my living place around 1730. Settle down everything but still many clothes left unpack in luggage cause laziness visited. :D Had porridge as dinner, took a bath then sat down and wrote a blogpost. It was my first night sleeping here. I hope I have a great one.

Good night people !

We learn from every step we take. Whatever you did today was the way it was meant to be. Be proud of yourself. I will be fine. All my loves, stop worrying about be. I will be back very soon with flying colours. 

HEAD UP. STAY STRONG. MOVE ON.

Waving goodbye to Miri

Hi people. A very good morning to all. It is 25/07/2013, a day to remember, a day to say goodbye. I am probably on my flight heading to Kuala Lumpur or even reached my destination when you guys read this. I booked my air ticket a month ago. never one can turn back time. No one can stop the earth for even one second. Finally, the day came. A day I have to leave, once again for my future. I had been escaped for half year, wasted for half year hanging here and there, doing nothing for half year, more accurate can be said as 7 months. Decided to fly again, the decision was made with tears. With too much of unwilling, I still have to go. All along this whole month, I had fully prepared myself for this leaving. Everyday woke up, told myself :" It's a brand new day, I will meet new people, will have new experience, will have new happiness. Must try to fit myself in. " I scared that I'm going to cry along the flight, I downloaded some episodes of Running Man, to keep my smile on. Also along this month, I made my time fully pack with my family, I cherished every single moment I spent with my dad & mum. I always thought that the best gift from my parents were spending their precious time with me. Two to three weeks ago, I felt that the time passed too slow, I can't wait to fly cause I was too bored and felt lifeless without studying & also growing mushroom at home *sigh* . hmm, it was another story one week ago, I put my ten fingers out and counted. 7 days to go, exactly one week ONLY. I started to worry, will homesickness attacked me once again not ? I hope not that serious as last time. This was a long lasting contradiction.

I remembered one week ago, baba phoned and told us he had accident when he was on his way home from plantation. Mummy and I rushed to see him. I do hate those who drive after drunk. You don't appreciate your life but others do kay, idiot ! Thanks God it was not that serious, at least baba didn't get serious injured but the car crumpled. I told mum don't care how much money should we spend to repair the car, as long as baba was fine, then every other things doesn't matter. Looked into baba, I can feel his pain. This was the second accident he met along this month, tears scrolled down my cheek, he worked so hard to earn money for us, trying so hard to give us a better life. At the moment, I knew that no matter how tough my life is in KL, I have to go through it and make him feel proud to have me one day SOON. Here I have to tell you : baba, I love you so much. Thanks for doing too much for me. My last week in Miri was fulfilled with laughter. Every night having beer and wine time with baba mama aunty and her husband. They kept motivated me throughout the week. Some day, I went to bake cake with small aunt. She hand made a smoked oreo cheese cake for me as a farewell cake. And also sushi time, steamboat night, BBQ night and many many more. Mum kept on preparing all my favorite foods such as steamed village chicken, baked beef, fried inkfish, fried cuttlefish with chilli, uncooked jellyfish, wine prawn &...I remembered one day early in the morning, baba backed home with a plastic full with seafood. He shouted :"Mei, I bought your favorite jellyfish and inkfish!" My face was like : oh thanks I have something nice to eat today HAHA. Am I not coming back home anymore ? I wonder. HAHA. Five days ago, dad brought me to our oil palm plantation. He explained to me how an oil palm grow, how those workers harvest and more. He said we have to thanksgiving and content with what we have now because there is still a little part of people in the corner of the world lack of food and drinks. Also, I was charged not to waste money in KL, buy what I need only but not what I want. What a well spent day with baba, he taught me too much  philosophy of life. You know what around 3 days ago, my sadness amplified. Amplified when mama helped me out to wash my Ipanema slippers. She said I can't wash it cleanly. Not only that, my sadness magnified AGAIN when mama said :" Mei, come ! Put this into your luggage. Don't forget to bring. " 2 days ago, mum was busy making some cookies for me to bring over. I talked to her the whole day, I asked mum why we have to separate over here and there. She smiled and said I'm too silly to ask that. She kept repeated: "don't cry, you have to grow. This world is so cruel, go through it. You will definitely miss home but missing someone is a part of loving them, if you're never apart then you'll never know how strong your love really is." It was Monday night. That was my last night to spend with my baba because he was not in Miri for few days. He was unable to send me off this morning. I think I suffer from split personality ? Some moment, I thought that it's so sad that baba can't send me off but at the opposite side, I might think that It's okay, nevermind. I will see him in few months time. Is this a serious disease ? The night, yiyi husband told me they had a farewell dinner for me, those dishes were delicious but deep in heart I felt bitterness. I can't enjoy myself that night cause the leaving was getting nearer and nearer. Just another two more night then I have to leave. Once again, I punched into depressed and fear. Yesterday, it was my last day to be at home. I slept till noon. Grandmum visited me in the afternoon. Had my last packing last night. Spent almost last few hours at yiyi's home. Went for supper at twelve and backed home at one. Her husband told me: your future is my hope! I felt so proud ! Well, I promise I won't create any disappointment anymore. I received many farewell angpau from them too. I promise I will try my best this time. My families are just too wonderful and awesome, how I live without them ? Couldn't do anything to help myself for this fluctuation, I comfort myself with inspiration quotes, can say as escaping the truth. Whatever. Big laugh. In our life, there will be cloudy day or stormy day, but don't forget there will also have sunny day.

Baba mama, the cities in between us block the way. They make it harder. But I'll scream louder to say I miss you. Sometimes it takes the worst pain to bring about the best change. Don't worry dear parents, I will come back from United Kingdom with my bachelor certificate in hand 4 years later. Wait me !

Tough people make it through tough situations. Giving up is never an option. How much I wish I can always stay at this age like the photo above, but it's impossible I know. Everyone has to grow up. Sometimes all I want is run away from my life, but I know it won't solve any problems. So i choose to stay and fight. I will count my smiles instead of my tears. Thanks yiyi for sending me off this morning with King, the car I love the most. Thanks for these wonderful days. I will be back soon. Bye, goodbye. Separation is pain, too pain.

HOME, I WILL MISS YOU.


Motivation of life:

Accept challenges in life, so that you may feel the exhilaration of victory.

A day to remember.

After ahjiahjo for whole morning, finally we decide to go somewhere to send off his birthday present. I was shocked when I got a reply from you right on time in midnight. Thanks for reading the blog post last night. Normally you won't read I know, but I wonder why you did it last night. From your reply, i knew that my blog was read by you, cause you requested your birthday present. Well, i had prepared the present a little bit earlier, as past few years. Every year there must be present from me to you, but send or not send was another story. The present for your 18th birthday was a black Quiksilver shirt. Maybe the gift was not as costly as the camera lens, but I hope you can wear it someday, a pretty day with a pretty bright smile, in front of me. It's a hard favor to think of what present to give on people birthday, I love to give shirt as gift. Know why ? The feeling is terribly amazing when you saw they put on the shirt you gave. Once I stepped inside the Quiksilver shop, the black shirt caught my attention and I started to figure out when you wear it. Walked through the whole shop, I can't found the second shirt that gave me such this feeling. It was not in promotion price but it's worth I told myself. You are the first one to receive shirt as present from me, happy not ? Ask yourself. Maybe you will feel embarrass if you come alone (I guess so), I don't mind Connie to follow. I knew that we were not going to talk like before, we didn't talk at first. Both of us with our phone in hand, don't know what should we talk. The moment was too awkward. Well, all of these were in my expectation. I don't know what should I talk, but it would be my greatest pleasure to see you, right in front of me. It had been  2 years time I don't dare to look into your eyes, I was scared to face the real world inside.

 

This was the first photo of the day. Wen Zhen with his 4th birthday present of eighteenth. We were wearing same colour of top (black) and same colour of short pants (dark blue). I smiled crazily in heart when I saw you. *It was also the very first time to ride on your car. Guess it was also the last time. :( *Big sigh.

I likey this photo so much. So So much. Your face look so strange here but anyway thanks for having a photo shoot with me today. For sure, this picture will be kept in everywhere, phone, laptop and even heart. Thanks for the reunion. You told me it's impossible for us to back to before. Yea I knew that we couldn't turn back time but we can make it even more better. Right ?

This is what i always did when I was at beach. Happy reunion & Happy 18th birthday Wen (:
What a sunny day. I didn't rub off what I drew on the sand, I will let the sea water to wash away, wash away all those bad memories and keep all those awesome one. Of coarse on the left side, It was my shadow. Ignore it.

The combination of the pictures today. Happy 18th birthday once again ! Hope we start to talk more and more from today onwards. I am right here waiting for our next conversation. Check Instagram , Facebook and Twitter for all those photos.

Three photos with different smiles on. Big love to the MIDDLE one, so the in love with the smile. Anyway, my heart get warm little bit when I see your smile. God had answered my prayer.

Oops, I had taken one amazing photo with your DSLR camera, with your back look on the volleyball net. Send to me as soon as possible kay. The picture is so important you know, it is going to be a memory of mine towards you. 5%, remember? 5% portion.  AND, send me a pic of you with the shirt on. Billion of thanks.
It's almost last of your 18th birthday, I have too much things to tell in a sudden. Will you listen to me ?  Text me when you free.
Lastly,  I hope that you will like the shirt I gave. Enjoy your day.

Dear Lord, thanks for sending him back. :D *wink*

To: Wen Zhen (:

Here's a happy birthday post to the boy, or even a man, since he will turn into 18 soon. It's late midnight now and I'm still hanging in front of the lappy, figuring out this post for him. I hope I can post this successfully right on 12am of 14/07/2013, the eighteenth birthday of him.

Here is the beginning of the story. We met here. And this photo was taken by him if I am not mistaken. We were close that time, so so close.

The king of drum. The picture that I love the most in the 'MUDA' album, and it used to be his contact in my phone, reminds me of every calls and messages from him. In the past years, many things happened on me towards him which are memorable. We normally talked in the midnight, I wonder why but I enjoyed it. Whenever i saw this image appeared on my phone screen, I knew that it must be a text from him. I felt excited, always. Although we kept on talking nonsense. Not only that, I loved phone to wake him up for training. His voice was just too awesome through phone, especially the 'hehe". All of these doesn't last long. Few weeks only I think ? I'm here to say that those few weeks time were too precious and those were the days which I enjoyed the most throughout my muda life.

"A team means a team" , 4 of us, from right (Wen Zhen, Zhi An, Prudence, Shi Hien) with our team shirt on The memories will etch in everyone's heart, I guess. The first competition we did together and made it a fully success. The result of the competition was not important, the most importantly we all enjoyed the process and the preparation for it. Readers, do you see that's a peace in everyone's hand in the picture ? We did it together UNEXPECTEDLY. After the competition, around that time our friendship started to fade. We (me and him) were not close to each other, not anymore. Yet I don't know why.

Beach, place I love the most. This is one of the photo I love too. I found it from his profile. This was the basic image I use to do a puzzle for him during his 17th birthday. I didn't send for him as someone told me he might dislike it. So at last, I threw it away when I cleaned up my room few months ago..Too much things happened throughout our cooperation in lion dance club. I guess that was the main reason that separated us. But, true friendship can go through any hardship right ? Why we can't ? Maybe it's not true enough I think.

Look at his sunshine smile. Yes, you should always smile this way. 2 years, It had been 2 years we didn't talk. NO point to repeat once again the grandmother story between what happened to us here. Both of us knew it.

Remember ? Remember this pic? I told you I prefer this instead of the other one. Things go so different now. After 2 years, we just started to talk last year end, through some whatsapp. Face to face talk, still not yet. Do you know that I need how much of guts to text or whatsapp you at first ? I know that you won't reply, I know that you won't care, I know you won't even have a read with it, but I still send. Still can't forgive me after 2 years ? Now, I am leaving again soon. Let's grab a drink when free ? Catch up please. I have missed you, brother. :)

It's a nice feeling when you know that someone likes you, someone thinks about you, someone needs you; but it feels much better when you know that someone never ever forgets your birthday. Before the clock strikes 12, let me take the opportunity, to let you know that you have grown a year more. There are some things I left undone, some words I left unsaid, some feelings I left unexpressed, but your birthday could never be left unwished,
Happy EIGHTEENTH Birthday WEN ZHEN !

This photo taken on 31/08/2011, my 16th birthday at Citrus. This was our last photo I think, very last. Not anymore after this. Well, all those were past tense.  I'm trying so hard to remove them. 

Wen, have a great birthday kay. I know many others will celebrate your 18th birthday with you. Your 18th birthday present is with me now. Come and get it from me if we can meet up. I want to give it to you with my own hands. 14/07,  It's the day you turn into teen. Happy 18th birthday to you. You have my heartfelt birthday wishes. Stay handsome, stay cute and most importantly stay healthy.

*I hope you can read this someday, somewhere..

Sincerely,

Hien

Blog post posted at 12:00am sharp of 14/07/2013.

Throwback to 321 !

Well, throwback to SPM 2012 result released date, 21/03/2013. I was a SPM candidate 2012. It was only one month to go before the release of the results. I may have taken the examination few months ago,but the feelings of insecurity and anxiety had not diminished with time. After the examination, I had initially felt relief that it was all over and even told myself that it did not really matter how i did since I had done my best. It was not a long conviction. That impressionable conviction soon disappeared as I began to reflect on my performance in the examination. Time stretched interminably before me and I began to berate myself for not having started the revision earlier as I thought about all the mistakes that I had made in the examination. First subject was BM, I felt depressed after the first subject. I thought I did it badly. The following were English and History. So far English still not that bad but totally different story for history. I was worried with my history cause those were tough questions for me. For physics and chemistry, I did stupid mistakes in both experiments. That was totally a wrong answer. And I lost around 10++ marks there, how to aim for A+, I knew it was impossible so once again, disappointments killed me that moment. In my mind, I kept replaying the examination in my mind and repeatedly see those mistakes. All this time, I was tormented by such despair and regret. At other times, when I was more positive and felt that I had actually performed creditably. My mind would picture all the right answers that I had given, especially those were trickier than others. At such times, I would applaud my cleverness and presence of mind. But of course, this did not last long as my darker moods would move me in to eclipse these happier moments and I would plunge once more into hopelessness. These fluctuations certainly kept me occupied. The months that waiting for the results to release were like hell, every minute seems so long. Along the wait, I can't even count how many times do I cry for it. On the day when the results were to be released, I made my way to school with trepidation. I measured each step scrupulously, hoping to prolong the inevitable. Finally, I made it to school without any mishap. I went to vice principal's room at the first moment I reached school. I knew that all teachers that love me will gather there every morning. Pn Lai, Pn Ten, Mr Yong, Pn Marie and Mr Thoo, They accompanied me through the long wait, but yet no one willing to tell me my result. I knew they had gotten the results in their hand. They kept telling me everything will be fine, don't worry. I got that. I sensed something's wrong. Their smile were so weird this morning. And the weirdest was they didn't joking with me this morning..Fine, I walked to hall as the result will be released in the hall. My friends were all in the hall, waiting anxiously for their turn to receive their result slips. All around me, students were either trying to conceal their fears by putting up a brave front or openly displaying their uncertainty. I was one of the second that I mentioned. Tears were rolling in my eyes. I stood in the queue and saw my friends either screaming with joy when they saw their results, or slinking away in shock and shame when it was not good. I could feel my heart beating faster as the queue shortened to bring me closer to the front. The result slip played an important role in my life, I couldn't manage to get a bad one, I told myself. Just before me was a girl named Wan Ling. When she saw her result slip, a whoop of joy escaped her and she started jumping around before me. She grabbed everyone in sight and hugged them, so delirious with joy she was. I began to feel my heart sinking. Surely after such excellent results, mine would show a failure, right ? I trembled with fear as the teacher handed me my result slip. Oh my gosh, threw away my slip and I burst into tears. I didn't get what I expected myself to get. 9A1B will be my pain forever. BM, this subject ruined my SPM. I felt so upset the time, why why and why. I cried silently behind the pillar. Pn Marie catched all this scene. She came over and asked me what happened. What touched me the most was she hugged my tight and said: "Silly, don't cry. You have to know why God arranges this for you. Accept it and be strong.我们的人生总要有一些遗憾点缀才会漂亮"  Wiped off my tears with her hand, she then went to stage for photography session. Then, Pn Marie and Pn Lai brought me to VIP room for lunch. I had a great chatting time with them, at the moment they were like my best friends. At night, Mr Yong and Pn Ten, my bid parents in Chung Hua, they brought me to Grand Palace for dinner. Thanks for doing all these for me my dearest teachers, I appreciate them deeply in heart. And also a big thank you to those who accompanied me go through the long wait. You guys were awesome. Well, this was really a memorable day, The B, one of my pain for now and always.

Now, few months after the result released* Actually the B was nothing, university is way more important. 其实，想想，那个B也不过是如此而已。